Christmas 2020

For the first time in 21 years...I was totally relaxed. ⁣

Christmas morning. Surrounded by open boxes and wrapping paper, a messy kitchen, gifts spread out everywhere- and. It’s all good. ⁣

It’s peaceful. I’m peaceful. ⁣

We started to open our family presents on Christmas Eve because early Christmas morning- we’d get up and make waffles + Bloody Mary breakfast for the entire family. There was cooking and cleaning—I was always stressed. The timing of when the boys (when they were young) would come downstairs- always be a struggle. My mom wanted to “be there” when they saw the gifts from Santa- but it got pretty hard to tell them to wait. I found myself always trying to please everyone. ⁣

Today...as I write- boys are still asleep and I’m happy to just be in this “mess”. ⁣

There’s no schedule. No plans. No⁣ Have-to’s. Sure- there will be waffles and Bloody Mary’s - but it will happen when it happens. ⁣

Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE and dearly miss being around everyone- but this is special. I’m going to enjoy what’s really important. Being present with each other. ⁣

That’s the best kind of present.

I was present. And my kitchen is clean. Merry Christmas all. ⁣

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12.26.20

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