you pull me out…

“You pull me out...”⁣

I’m not one to believe in a “thing”— but in many “things”. ⁣

I take what moves me. I follow my gut. ⁣

When I’m not feeling good- you can find me blasting old school rap or a particular song from “The 1975” on repeat (and very, very loud)— or following gurus and coaches—I have many ways. I’m open to what works. ⁣

When my mom passed and I went on my first solo journey, I had this desire to find a Shaman in Sedona. So I did. I worked with her in this medicine wheel which is part of the Buddhist Supta —a space that has been a place of great calm for me throughout the years. ⁣

There is something so magical and connected about the Supta. I usually go several times during my journey. ⁣

But in my everyday life- there are times of calm and there are times where I want (or need) someone to kick my ass. ⁣

Yesterday, I had one of those days. @joe_chura and @cars.com produced #refuel - (for 2020) a virtual day of speakers to inspire and...refuel us. ⁣

Well. I heard @jesseitzler . Dude. My world stopped. ⁣

⁣Holy. Crap. ⁣

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Ok. To be honest, I was in a funk...I was swaying between honoring the feels (which I still believe is important) and looking for something/someone to challenge me.

What’s amazing, is that today- after hearing Jesse speak (and ya know, I felt like he was speaking RIGHT TO ME...) I thought about this medicine wheel at the Supta. I imagined myself walking into the wheel and looking back at 2020 and what lies ahead. The⁣ Native American culture used medicine wheels to work through spiritual concepts. ⁣

I can’t be there physically - but I can be there in my mind— and Jesse is due North. (Medicine wheel humor...)⁣

So, I’ve decided and pull myself out and work the wheel. With the help of some 𝘧𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘴. ⁣

To Joe, Jesse, and @anahataananda. Thank you. ⁣

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[I’ll still be listening to my music way too loud..just so you know] ⁣

12.17.20